Ache

As I write crying…
Wondering how much damage has been done.
Insecure, confused, alone.
One guy to the next.
You think I’d learn.
One I fall for..
Another one that leaves me..
Is there something wrong with me?
I must be cursed.
I’m so young.
I shouldn’t even be involved in this.
Yet it’s impossible to be pulled away.
One falls in love with me.
I silently question why endlessly.
What’s special about me?
A question I should ask someone..
Yet I fear the answer.
Then you leave me.
My self-confidence.
Shattered yet again.
Another cycle continues.
On to the next.
You’d think I’d quit.
You’d also think I’d enjoy the hurt.
Should I blame them?
Should I hate the ones who hurt me in the past?
Still silently crying..
Why…