Regret

I wanted to die, Sink into the dirt and die.
The nervous/shaky words you managed to choke out.
“This is her…” The phrase that taunts me.
What did I expect?
Was I supposed to ask you not to avoid me,
Even when I cheated?
Yet I have to handle this with maturity..
As much as I want to scream at you
And cry at the same time.
Could I have ran away?
What a rude thing to do.
But I had to greet her.
Using every muscle just trying to smile.
Can I leave now? I was tempted to ask.
As I hugged you and whispered in your ear.
“I hope your happy with her.”
And then having to her glare at me.
Then walking away in tears.
Another good thing I fucked up?
You can say that.
Another thing I regretted?
Of course…